Sunday, June 26, 2005
it pains to see those glistening eyes.
a nature so unspoilt,
innocence so sadly rare.
for this i find is more than just
the ordinary want, need, thirst.
and all i ask is to see for always,
that smile plastered on the pretty face.
everywhere i turn
it's there. i find
myself looking and comparing,
glancing but not staring,
for something remotely like this.
it kills me to see me
looking at me, looking out for you.
uniquely you.
again, not sure if you'll see this. but anyway.
i ask not for possession. i ask not for reciprocation. a silent bliss, just for us to stay like this. i'll be anything you want me to be. the times we had i miss. that fatal message really did sting. people will come and go in our lives but it is this place within me you'll always be. it's funny, that i can feel so much and still smile, and genuinely feel happy for you when you say you're going to be with someone else. for all of this while all i wanted was for you to be happy. nothing changes now. maybe it's just out of the moon stupidity. maybe that's what "beyond normal" feels like. maybe.
